Hello Reader,
I spent the majority of my writing time this week trying to flesh out a project. I had a tiny idea which morphed into an overzealous idea. It then stressed me out so much that I became paralyzed and avoided it all entirely.
My original idea was simple. I read a lot of fantasy, and often wish I could be more like the leading ladies in these books. I wanted to write my life as if through the lens of a fantasy character, to add some magic to the mundane. I had a character in my head- the girl I would be if I were in one of those novels- and I wanted to bring her to life.
But I bit off more than I could chew. I thought it would be cool to integrate her story into one of my other fictional worlds (I have numerous half-written series). Then I thought maybe I could actually somehow integrate ALL of my worlds. Then I panicked. I wasn’t going to have enough time to figure it all out for my blog post, but I had already wasted so much time on it. Then I avoided it altogether because it was stressing me out.
This is a common occurrence in my life. I take on too much and then when I’m overwhelmed, I convince myself that it’s proof I can’t do it at all.
Instead of abandoning the project, as I tend to do, I thought I would go back to the simple idea and keep it simple.
Again, I had a character in mind. The more I tried to write her story, though, the more I was both inspired and annoyed. I didn’t want to imagine her, I wanted to become her. I realized that she wasn’t that far off from who I could actually be, if I tried. A lot of the qualities and skills that I admired in fantasy were already on my bucket list.
So, Reader, this short post marks the start of a new journey I would like to take. Becoming Her. I want to dive into the same topics I always planned to, but with a new sense of purpose and direction: intentionally becoming the person I thought was only possible in a dream world.
“Argue for your limitations and, sure enough, they’re yours.”
– Richard Bach
My only limits are the ones I place on myself.
Till the next.
p.s. I’ve been determined to keep my promise to myself and post every Wednesday. I’m proud of myself for sticking to it this week instead of giving up. It might not be the best post, but I did it!